In the next two months, my life will change dramatically. Commencement is this month and my wedding is July 4. People keep asking me how I feel, but the strange thing is that I don’t have time to feel anything
other than stress. I barely have enough time to go through my enormous to-do list, let alone process what’s happening or going to happen in my life.
I haven’t had time to live my precious last college moments with my friends. I’ve been too busy with my fiance and studies. I feel sick when I think about all of these things I am letting go of, all because I have to grow up. I’ve got a career set for after college, I know where I’m going to live and I’ll have a wonderful husband to support me. However, I feel that being prepared for the future is costing me valuable time with others that I love. People look at me like I have everything together, but I barely do.
I look at everyone who has time to go out with their friends, share a few drinks and vent about the stresses in their lives. I haven’t had time to have those moments, and I feel like the opportunities have already sailed.
I guess what I am getting at is that yes, your education is important, but be sure to spend time with your friends. Also, don’t be in a hurry to be in a relationship. As nice as it may seem to have a boyfriend or girlfriend, fiance or spouse, you have the rest of your life for that. You may never see some of your friends from college again. Luckily, things like Facebook can help folks stay in touch, but in the end, face-to-face interaction is the way to go.
Ever since I was a child, I just wanted to grow up and be an adult. Now that I have achieved the goals I set for my life, I don’t know what to do.
All I knew as a child was that I wanted to get good grades, go to college and get a good job.
Well, I’ve done that and now I don’t know what to do with myself. I will never have the chance to live on my own in a small flat or apartment, go out with friends to pick up cute guys in the bar or travel the world alone. I’m settling down without a chance to spread my wings and fly on my own.
Don’t get me wrong, I wouldn’t trade what I have for anything in the world. I just don’t know what to do with a life running so perfectly and according to plan.
Megan Myer/Online editor
Megan Myer can be reached at firstname.lastname@example.org.